It doesn’t matter, I feel my heartbeat. I cycle away from the place where he lives and think, better not to stay in the neigbourhood. So I bring back the key of the room I just rented, bye bye beautiful spot. I don’t want this nervous energy flowing anymore. I want peace of mind. Heartbeat, beat, beat..
It doesn’t matter, I feel my heartbeat. As I let the steam of telling a friend how angry, sad, disappointed, rejected, misunderstand I feel. My heart has pain. I love him. Can this stop now please. He is far away. It will only take time, to sooth the pain, to forget the pleasures we shared, to meet someone else. To stop longing for something that doesn’t work.
But for now I stil want him, feel him, close.